I've been dragging my feet getting back to Second Life.
I've been dying to sing, my set list is chosen my songs are down....but when it comes to logging in? My heart sinks. This break has thrown all sorts of growing pains at me. I feel like I've done some pretty heavy evolving, but one thing I will never change is my loyalty. I will never forget where I started, those people that had faith in me even when I didn't. Those that gave me a chance. The ones that came to my shows when I sucked. I love them.
When I had my car accident in 2009 I tried SL because I was bed ridden and couldn't think of anything else to do. I also thought it would help return dexterity to my right hand. I love burlesque so naturally I ended up on the sim that was to become Viva La Glam. When that sim split into two groups I supported both and remained neutral.
When one group stabbed me in the back I didn't provide any but the scantest details related to my own life directly and no gossip. What shocked me is that I was banned from Viva too.
It is true that in times of trial you learn who your friends are. I have several true SL friends that have stood by me throughout all this upheaval. I value them as highly as I do the friends I see in RL. They are the ones that make me want to sing, and they are the ones that "deserve me at my best." But there is the odd folder or the errant subscribo message that reminds me of how amazing those first days were, surrounded by all those people that pushed me to succeed.
At the time I thought it was too good to be true.
Now, it's time to begin, anew....